lovely:x

& if you're feeling scared,
remember the time we shared.
You know it meant everything,
you know it meant everything to me.






when my tears fall they fall on the lips you once kissed






Take your damn fairy tale endings
and your hopes, dreams, & wishes
and shove them up your ass.
This is the real world,
&& that shit just doesn't cut it anymore




call and say sweet things to me.
build me up, then tear me down.
you like me best on the ground




You chose a girl who is using you, over a girl
who would die for you.







Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true. & I'm only me when I'm with you.






Look what I've become, Look what I've become without you, i told you i needed you here.




& I still cant read our old conversations without stopping to cry. i miss you so much.





The hardest boy to get over is the one you never really had.




Back then, a lot was different about me. I was almost a completely different person, and maybe if things hadn't changed as much as they had, I'd still be the same. However, the truth is, everything had changed, and it wouldn't be the same again.



I look in the mirror now and all I see is yesterday. At night I hear your voice and it is calling out my name. And with every hour just hold on to what you can. They're lost in a moment and fading away in the night. I would change everything, but I can't do anything. I would give all that I have just be with you now.





At night I trip without you, and hope I don't wake up. Because waking up without you is like drinking from an empty cup.




Say good-bye. You know I tried. And I’m restless, and deceitful. It's all because you turned away. You always seem to run away. I’ll close my eyes but I will not let you go.







I say to myself: "Self, why are you awake again?" It is one a.m. standing with the fridge open, staring. Such a sight, florescent light, the stars are bright. Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit, but as it is, I might watch tv. Because it is nice to see people more messed up than me.






I can't go places, I always see traces of the only thing in life I'll ever need. If I could do all the things I only dream that I could do, I'd still be the girl in love with you.






But I loved you, and then I lost you, and I will never be the same. Caught in your eyes, lost in your name. I will never be the same.




There are people in this lifetime that we should never meet. Because to be here now without you, well, my life's so incomplete. I will tell you what you mean to me, maybe then you'll see.




Your picture is tucked half-heartedly into the edge of my mirror, and your love note is ripped and taped to my wall. I'll keep them forever, in hopes that maybe if I hold onto them, you'll come back too.




Here, we're nothing more than fools and whores
and sad highs through the summer sand
We're living in a wasteland







If you weren't giving up, you shouldn't have left.





There are so many words that we can say spoken upon long-distance melody. This is my hello. Maybe in five or ten years you and I will meet again, straighten this whole thing out. Maybe then honesty need not be feared as a friend or an enemy, but this is the distance. And this is my game face.







I've been spending more time underneath the stars lately, because well... I both know we're underneath the same thing, and maybe... your looking at the same stars, seeing the same things i am. hopefully, your thinking of me.




Can't you see I've loved you all along?







I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine




We're all just everyday people, and there's a part of you connected with everyone else, and there's me and there's you. Oh, if you only knew. If I could I'll take you with me, but I'm here and you're there.





The world is too big to never ask why,
The answers don't fall straight out of the sky
I'm fighting to live and feel alive
But I can't feel a thing without you by my side.




Look, I know you don't care anymore. I know I'm just a part of your past that you left behind. And it sucks that I have to watch my life pass me by because I can't stop thinking about what happened. I miss you, like crazy. And it's so hard not seeing you anymore. It's so hard not even hearing from you at all anymore. You are ALL that I think about it. And it's driving me fucking crazy. Why? Just, why? What happened with us? Did you just stop caring one day? Did you never even care from the start? I know I shouldn't be hung up on this. I know I should just let go, and let whatever happen's, happen. But I can't. It won't leave my mind. And until I ever hear from you again, I will be a fucking wreck.






But eventually, you always came back. You always swore I was the one who completed you. You said things weren't right without me, and life is weird when I'm not there. But it's been so long this time. It's got me thinking you really aren't ever coming back. Maybe this time it was goodbye forever.





I'll ask you "what in the world should we do?"
The light is green, our break is through
Are we not trying or we're trying too hard?
You know I never want to miss
I hold on tight and reminisce
But it's bittersweet to me




You were standing on the hood of the car,
singing out loud when the sun came up.
And I knew it wasn't right,
but it felt so good.




Now you're dropping words right out of the blue. Well, I still remember every day spent missing you. Just take me back in time. Take me back to the days we felt alive.




Please don’t go away. Please? Because when I look at you, I can feel it. And, I look at you, and I’m home. Please, I don’t want that to go away. I don’t want to forget.



You've left a space that no one else can seem to fill. It is an ocean wide and deep and hurts me still. I feel your love taking off, slowly fading out. Once there was just you and me, now I can't recall.




Uncertainty is killing me, and I'm certainly not asleep. Maybe I've gone far too deep. Maybe I'm just far too weak, and that's the last place I want to be, the last place. There is so much we don't know, so we love and we hope that it holds. Thousands were lost and maybe more. The question remains, "What is this for?" Maybe it came unexpected. Maybe I'm left unprotected, and that's the last place I want to be.




I miss you. I miss everything about you. The way you held my hand, the way you hugged me, and the way you could make my day better no matter what.






I remember you, so remember me as I was back then, in my ripped blue jeans, moments ago. It seems to me that we were just kids in a memory, in a memory. It feels good to forget how wonderful it was in the noise of a crowd, but sometimes cars in the night sound like the ocean. And then I swear I'm back there, seems so real, it disappears.





And I'm lonely again tonight. I can feel it like a knot in my side. They keep saying this is part of the ride, but I'm not getting stronger.





Baby sweet baby won't you please come on back home to me? I've been so lonely. These few days feel like a hundred years.  Here I am I'm knowing that I would do most anything for you to be with me.





I’ve never missed you this much. Never thought I would. Didn't think you'd feel so far away.




Inside my skin there is this space, it twists and turns, it bleeds and aches. Inside my heart there's an empty room, it's waiting for lightning, it's waiting for you.




I don't feel like talking, just come sit close
and put your arm on my shoulder
it's all I need right now





It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you & that this memory of you I've held in my heart, I've finally been able to let it go. I'm just trying to give you some space, give you some time to realize how much you mean to me & hopefully you'll pick up your act & come back. You & I both know that deep inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much as I cry, fight & stress about you, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were worth it. Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't be for long because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it was real. I don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better days. A better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. I don't want a fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together. You know I'd do anything for you. I wanna see how far you'll go for me. There's a lot of things I want, & you're not one of them. I need you. I keep trying to push away these feelings & hide the underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day. Me & you, we're just the 8th wonder of the world. I'm dying inside because I hope what I'm saying isn't too late. Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about me was you.









No one else could take your place. I will always see your face, when I'm awake and when I'm dreaming. Because I believe there's a place, for you and me in this crazy world.












Morning came and I tried not to notice, it was time for you to move along. The minutes fell like petals all around us. faster faster there they go. a goodbye hug, when goodbye feels so wrong.








And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees, cause you have that effect on me. You do. So please, give me your hand, so please, give me your lesson on how to steal a heart, as fast as you stole mine.







I sit and wonder about your whereabouts, while my own life is going nowhere. Sometimes I wonder if i'll ever get it right, if i'll ever see you again, if it's all one big joke.. Maybe there really isn't such a thing as a fate. Maybe we live and we die, and that's all there is to it. Maybe the outcome of our life really depends on how we choose to live it, not by praying and wishing for a sign to direct us. These moments count. And I realized I don't ever wanna waste another one without you.







his hole in my heart is in the shape of you, and no one else can fit. But why would I want them to?




They don't love you like I love you